Yep. Two posts in one day. I was FEELING this earlier but decided not to attach it to the first post. In FACT, I got off the computer & got busy to keep myself from thinking too much. (Me thinking too much = scary ... VEEEEERY scary! LOL!) But, several hours later, I still want to know, so here I am again. Do any of you ever feel so deep-down tired you just want to hide from the world? Do you ever feel that everyone 'wants a piece of you' at exactly the time you don't have a thing to offer or the stamina to offer it? Does everything - even the tiniest thing - seem HARD some days? No - I'm not 'down' or depressed. In fact, I'm HAPPY! I'm just exhausted, & right now I think it will take a whole lifetime to find enough energy to feel like ME again. I'm guessing this is partially Lupus/fibro-related. But I don't know. I just know I'm bone-weary. I want my life back - the one where I could jump around and run and get out on my own without depending on anyone else to TAKE me anywhere. I want to DANCE when I feel like it; do aerobics again. Live on coffee & LAUGHTER. Even LAUGHING hurts today. And I am not looking for sympathy; just truly wondering if any of YOU ever feel this way? ....................... Okay. I'm finished with these silly blog posts for today. Honest!
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Oh yeah. I'm running on fumes at the moment, too. So many things need attending, the list goes on and on. I am just tired!
But, tomorrow may just be the best day of the whole year so I will look forward to that. Or try to take a nap.... :)(that won't happen, lol)
I wish you comfort so you can deal with the frustration of feeling this way. I'm gonna throw some joy in there too. A little joy can go a long way. You take care of you!
Hey my friend....I have fibro too and yes I feel like that as well.
I can't drive anymore because of my eye's and I hurt everyday..just the degrees of pain vary from day to day. I loved to dance...these days I do a little diddy in my bedroom and then go sit down for awhile! I look forward to the weekends because my husband is home and he takes me out for awhile. I had two corneal transplants and cataract surgery's as well. I am still legaly blind since 2003. I miss not jumping in the car and just going where ever I would like...
I understand and I get bone weary too. My in-laws were here visiting for the week and left this AM..I felt I could sleep for a month after they left this AM.
I also take care of my Mom, she is 90 and lives with us....some days are just too tough.
E-mail me Kai..sjmcdowell@yahoo.com
if you ever just want to talk...I'm here!!
Warm Hugs and lots of Love,
Susan
Yes, yes, yes! All summer this year . . . I suspect the heat, for I don't tolerate oppressive heat very well anymore. But now it's FALL (40 degrees last night—fire in the woodstove soon!), and I've actually been productive all day the last couple of days without feeling like I was going to fall over without a nap.
I'm with Cherie—joy goes a long way. Take some today . . . it's out there waiting to be found. Love you!
YES YES YES YES YES! That's exactly how I feel on MOST days. Not today, thank goodness. In fact I'm feeling sort of energetic today. But most days I just feel like there's no energy at all to do the tiniest thing. Even reading becomes a chore. And there's no "resting up" from this kind of smothering fatigue. I just have to wait till it goes away for a little while.
I hope you are able to take it easy today, Sweet Kai. Just let that bucket fill up with spoons. I love you.
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